What challenges have you faced while meditating on world leaders?

Q: Hello there mermaid! I am loving all the beautiful things you say about gender and really appreciate the courageous choice to talk about social issues on your spiritual blog. I have learned a lot. 😊 I was hoping I could ask about any difficulties you have found meditating on world leaders though if that is okay! I read your book and was fascinated with the section where you talked about how you spend time doing that work. I have this problem where when I sit down to meditate on one and I end up getting spit out of the meditation so to speak and the person’s aura won’t even let me in. Do you have any help for that?

A: Hi there! Thank you for your appreciation and love. <3 I love talking about gender and how creative we get to be with it! And oh my goodness, yes. Please ask whatever you all want to ask! I focused on the social questions to bring balance to my site first, but I have a lot of mermaid stuff coming through soon too. =)

In terms of difficulties in meditating on the “higher ups” in our world, one of the biggest learning curves I had to digest as someone with a strong water constitution was that “love” expressed would cause more violence. So, say you’re meditating on Vladimir Putin and you try to do the Sea of Love meditation on him where you surround him with blue-green mermaid water and try to generate a sense of well-being in him… Yeah. When he’s in it, he’s fine, but when you let him out, buckle up. When you put someone whose entire center of being (in their human incarnation) is based on dominating others and you try to direct them into a “loving” space like that, they come out wanting to dominate even harder just to show you that what you did was ineffective. Their attitude is, “Ha! I’ll show you just how much that didn’t work. Nice try.” It’s not like he is conscious that someone is meditating on him, but unconsciously he feels the expressed love as a threat and seeks to prove that he will absolutely not be thwarted and will not be changing his tactics. A lot of people in the Bardon/Hermetic groups have this challenge and it’s kind of a shocker for mermaids who just want to heal everyone with their love and flowy goodness. As it stands now, we have to find other solutions. For those who have not read my book, I use the cosmic alphabet and a variety of meditations I have gleaned through vast spiritual studies (many through the Hermetic tradition) to help shift people into spaces where great healing or restorative work can be done.  On most people who aren’t sociopaths, psychopaths, or malignant narcissists, this works beautifully, but a few of the people I direct my attention to are a different sort. In these cases, the focus is less on healing and more on minimizing the damage they do to the earth and others as much as I possibly can.

There is the argument that if one’s concentration is good enough it can overcome or penetrate anything (another’s will if they are acting violently) without any real hardship, but that can take a very long time to cultivate. Even with my special-interest autistic brain which helps me immerse in whatever I am hyperfixated on, my ability just isn’t that refined yet, and magical training is not synonymous with one’s neurotype. The brain and the will are two different things, though the brain obviously helps us be aware of our own consciousness in a unique way on earth. I haven’t met anyone with the kind of spiritual development to do what I’m referencing on planet earth yet to be honest. Not that we can’t get there, but Bardon’s exercises aren’t magic spells where you can practice them once and then be a pro. I think some of them take more than a lifetime to master for most people. =/ One of my friends who is having challenges “establishing justice on earth” as quickly as he wants to plans on contacting more spirits of the earth zone (there are 360) to gain advice, so I’m interested in hearing what he receives there. This friend once said that wars on earth wouldn’t stop until enough of us chose to stop them… He received friendly criticism from someone else arguing that this idea was too simplistic. Perhaps it is overall, but I do think he’s onto something. There must be enough collective momentum to tip the scales. While I agree with his critic that many people do want to end wars on earth, not everyone is ready to take action to stop them yet… And even if they are, if we are doing a magical approach only, that takes a lot of time as I mentioned. Action and skill have to be coupled together here. There are great teachers helping people refine those faculties and gifts, but it’s one of those processes that manifests (right now) as a slow burn.

So, my rudimentary method is one that is actually quite corny haha. I had a lot of limitations growing up, but for whatever reason, my father was fine with me watching Criminal Minds, and I watched many episodes dozens of times each. Though the show is far from representing criminal justice reality or how things work in the FBI, there are still some awesome truth nuggets (and a great cast/storyline) to draw the watcher in. I was always fascinated by Jason Gideon who said something like, “It is my job to think as dark minds do.” (That is not an exact quote, just a rough paraphrase.) Gideon puts himself into the shoes of perpetrators and solves crimes by thinking as they think, walking as they walk, and wanting what they want. It is really dark and feels icky and I do not suggest this method for anyone who is vulnerable to suggestion or who has a hard time pulling themselves out of deep meditations on other people. There has to be a very strong sense of self for this kind of work to be effective without the user succumbing to someone else’s psychology. Thankfully, I have this strength since the air element is a prominent part of my aura. I think this element was developed in me from many lifetimes dwelling deep in interstellar space with very few planetary landings and minimal socialization. You have to have a very strong sense of self to do that without losing your mind. I also grew up with two narcissists for parents, so I had many opportunities to try to see the world as they saw it, and then pull myself out of it and regulate back to normalcy.

When I sit with Vladimir Putin, I do not try to “love” him. I don’t even use magical will to try to penetrate his mental or spiritual sphere. I sit with him as if I am a friend and learn to think what he thinks. I retain a distant sense of self while doing this at first, but do my best to immerse as much as possible. I mirror him while letting him take the lead on whatever it is he is doing, so he doesn’t feel like I am directing his actions or thoughts. Like Queen Margaery Tyrell in Game of Thrones, I reflect the state of being someone exhibits to build rapport. It is not exactly the same as validating the behavior, no, and Putin doesn’t care about my validation anyway lol. I can validate a feeling he has, but he doesn’t give that much credence either. He wants the worship of the world, but he’s not going to bend a knee to a single individual’s opinions. We just exist together with the same goals, aspirations, and interests to attain those things. As I find his motivators and live through his ups and downs, highs and lows, I think as he thinks. Eventually, the idea is to mirror him so exactly that he is unaware when I begin to act as an external consciousness he recognizes as “himself.” I have only just begun this in my meditations. Rather than just being a “friend” (he wouldn’t think of it in those terms anyhow haha) I become an extension of who he is. Margaery maintains her sense of self in Game of Thrones and doesn’t mirror anyone exactly enough to come off as their clone, but she is good enough at what she does to very quickly find common ground with whomever she interacts with. This scene from Game of Thrones is one of the most fascinating to me in the whole show. It’s a little over four minutes and you can watch it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YnJpLodjdt0.

Margaery centers herself in conversation to direct attention off a potential victim of Joffrey’s. She knows just how to ride the line of, “Us against them” but, “Oh wait, look over here. This is more interesting. I really tried hard… It must be me.” But because Joffrey almost “likes” her, he doesn’t want to hurt her… he actually starts having fun seeing himself through the lens of another person lol. Since I am acting as a more clone-like extension of Putin, what I am doing is just a little bit different, but the concept is similar. At first, we are at odds, then we have common ground… Some measure of rapport is built and before anyone knows it… Like Margaery, I have the crossbow in my hands. Putin thinks it is his idea because he is as excited about it as I am. The difference is that instead of aiming the bow at the Ukraine or some other unfortunate conquest, I can buy time by “practicing” as any predator would on unalive prey. (Like a would-be hunter would initially practice on inanimate targets.) It isn’t satisfying for long at all, but Putin is getting older. If I can gain a little time, then perhaps the collective can chime in with their training and we can come up with a more permanent solution.

People like Putin also usually have really sensitive outer auras, but unlike humans with high empathy and compassion, it isn’t sensitive in terms of caring about others. It is sensitive the way a predator is highly attuned and “sensitive” to shifts in their environment. This is what enables them to be immediately aware of anything oppositional or interesting that enters their sphere, but that makes it incredibly hard to do magic work on them without them noticing and getting hostile. Cosmic letters rarely work well on this type because it is so immediately obvious to them that something has shifted. This is getting long and I’m only scratching the surface (please forgive my awkward geek references lol), but hopefully the idea is getting across. Fire will make him blaze. Earth makes him feels like he owns the place. Water makes him feel unlike himself, so he has to act out. Air makes him feel like he’s god looking down. But himself? The self-aggrandized Vladmir high on a shelf (oh excuse me, that’s his horse)? Now that he loves in his own way. I can become such a being for a little while, trading an entire country’s violent ending into a little jig in the armoury. With only the slightest tip of the iceberg of myself poking out, so small and innocuous that it is like a tiny hair out of place, I can redirect desire so it acts upon something less devastating. That’s the goal at least for now… Baby steps. =)

Working with someone on a smaller scale, like Blake Masters (candidate for Arizona Senate), is a little easier. He lacks the same strength of will Putin possesses and is more easily knocked off his game when the collective gets mad enough at him. Unlike Putin, he’s still figuring out his own “worth” for himself. So, with a simple air meditation designed to bring him clarity, he kind of gets the point with his radical stance on ab**tion, just as one example. He scrubs his campaign website of the super extreme stuff and realizes he needs to tone it down. It is not at all about being a better or more empathetic person, but he knows when his ideas have gone too far, and he does care about people’s opinions insomuch as they get him the position he wants. The hard thing with these types though is that you have to be careful and make sure your tactics aren’t merely acting at a symptomatic level, but that they really will affect the decisions the person makes in the future. So, scrubbing a campaign site is not necessarily indicative of inner change, nor does it mean that once in office, he will chill out a little. With people like Blake, there isn’t as much meditating on being an extension of the self, but more of a, “Hey, here’s the path of least resistance to what you want. You don’t really care about this [insert radical position] anyhow… You still get to be in power, but only if you behave.” There’s a greater willingness to relax their stance if they get the political position they want. Since Blake’s sense of power is less concrete than someone like Putin’s, he is more willing to bargain, and this may be enough, but we will see. Hopefully he never gets into power, but he doesn’t have to know we don’t want that yet. =) Using the air to help him look at the present situation and how it will affect his immediate future seems to be having a positive effect, but at this time, it may only be superficial.

OKAY. So now that I’ve rambled like a child, I would suggest the void meditation for what you are doing. Sometimes when you try to step into a powerful world leader’s personal space, they “spit you out” as you put it because they resent the intrusion. These people specialize in invading whatever they want… They know what you are doing. They lack genuine empathy, but they know what it feels like to be trespassed upon because simply breathing the wrong way in their direction is a grievance to them. If you put them in the void though, there is literally nothing. There is nothing to fight against, rail against, or challenge in that space. Eventually most of them will kind of fall out of it, sometimes in a bit of a daze, but in meditation, it can calm them down enough for you to take notes and do observations on their energy while they are unaware. Unfortunately, it doesn’t seem to stick around long-term and usually only lasts while you’re doing it, but it can give you a space to familiarize yourself with their aura and to think about the best approach for working with their constitution. The point is to know who you are working with because that will sculpt the approach you need to use. I know some magicians who prefer the, “My approach will sculpt the person,” thing, but that rarely lasts long after the meditation and it can backfire on the wrong individual. I’m always open to other people’s experiences with this though and love to hear how they are achieving success!

You all keep me on my toes with these insightful questions. Keep them coming when you have them, and we’ll find the best path to paradise together. =)